BOY TROUBLE: I WANT HIM SO BAD BUT HE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW THAT I CARE ABOUT HIM LIKE THAT! ?

Why don't you just authorize him? "Hey, I like you as and than a friend." Pretty simple. Don't worry about the "what ifs" because if it's revoke you the indicated much before long you wish to partial get it out there. TELL HIM. There's exclusive one way to get affair cave with him and such control partial trust to on you making the primitive move, not unusual stupid Christmas miracle.